I’ve Mercury in Libra. The planet is conjunct Mars in my ninth home and I like to suppose!
I like to suppose quick, backwards, and upside-down. I believe out, suppose round corners and suppose by issues. I additionally prefer to drive and suppose, stroll and suppose, I get up considering and I believe whereas I bathe, backyard, cook dinner or lower the grass.. This all works, apart from the Libra half. My considering is tied to “the opposite”.
The ninth home needs to interrupt out. I don’t see this as a horse with a carrot dangling in entrance it’s face. I consider it extra like an erection making an attempt to flee pants. Lately, this has turn out to be a really large downside me. Properly an enormous downside in a brand new approach. As a result of it’s additionally been an issue. Hear to those quotes from males I DIDN’T marry.
“Why do you need to speak to everybody we see, in every single place you go?
“Why do you speak so loud? Hold your voice down.”
“Why did you say that shit after we have been taking part in playing cards?”
My husband has a mouth as unhealthy as mine so I don’t have that downside any extra, however I’ve a brand new one. Some months in the past I noticed I used to be going to should lower.
I’m speaking about chopping out time spent speaking to people who find themselves in additional fastened in place than I’m. We now have a dialogue going and I wish to suppose out from the place we’re…. caught, holding. I wish to suppose forward. I wish to push it.
I wish to do that as a result of I do know there’s something past the place we’re. However the different individual needs to ruminate. I’ve already ruminated, damnit! I wish to advance!
I caught it out in these “partnerships” for months and months, possibly so long as a 12 months, marveling at my very own codependence. However finally, my spirit of journey may take no extra. I lower the rope and began to let my thoughts run at it’s personal velocity.
You’ll have seen on this website, however not recognized what had modified. I began writing, OUT. I’ve been at this, not fairly a 12 months. I hacked the connection so I may run forward and now I’m approach, approach out.
I don’t see myself heading again to city, so to talk. The reason being as a result of this feels higher. I’m all the time preaching (one other function of my ninth home Mercury) in regards to the significance of residing true to your design. There isn’t a doubt I’m alleged to run my thoughts.
I’m penning this as a result of I’m really shocked at how this works. The Libra mind. “Properly, what do you suppose? Oh, you suppose that? Properly I’ll suppose that too and be well mannered.” After which I am going house, with my mind contained and in reality, managed by the “different” who’s harmless and totally unaware!
As I discussed, it’s been many months. I’m agency sufficient in my “restoration” to jot down this with out worry of backsliding, not again into “groupthink” however again into “partner-think”.
I write “I THINK” lots nowadays, as a result of it’s me doing the considering. I give up listening to what different individuals suppose or how they really feel about what I believe. I’ve specified, these are my impartial concepts”.
All my life, I’ve cherished puzzles. Properly, we’ve got essentially the most epic puzzle to resolve presently. I can be entertained and studying till the day I die. It’s a pleasant million piece puzzle for Elsa. Thanks, God.
The one draw back right here, is I’ve to do that alone… not my choice! That’s why it took me so lengthy to interrupt out.
Not too long ago, I noticed I used to be re-living / re-enacting my childhood. I wished my sister to steal the truck with me… however needed to go alone. A number of years later, I attempt to speak my sister into transferring to city with me, once I was 13:
I used to be profitable that point. However once I tried to get her to depart house, completely, she balked. I ultimately couldn’t stand it and left alone once I was fifteen.
That labored out for me and this may too. However the astrology! That is what Mercury in Libra goes by. I do wish to get alongside, I stuff my very own ideas so I can get together with yours. I don’t suppose I’ll do that once more. I’m discovering new methods to precise this power, as a result of I really feel so a lot better. Had I not accomplished this, I’d be proper the place I used to be, ready on another person to do one thing.
As a substitute, I threw my thoughts out, like a horseshoe. It landed within the dust, far sufficient out, when the remainder of me joined it, I had sufficient house to maintain going.
That’s my son, pictured. He did puzzles alone, too. I can’t imagine what’s revealed in these footage. I see myself in him, so clearly. There’s an intention to perform one thing and the pleasure while you get it and you recognize you’ve obtained it and obtained it proper.
Do you may have Mercury in Libra? Do you discover your self, tied to the opposite… considering in settlement on a regular basis?
