Saturn In twelfth – Expertise Wasted On Me?

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saturn manI’m engaged on this article downside. Meantime, an previous story got here up within the feedback. I used to be fascinated about pulling it up. I discovered this previous put up as a substitute… explaining this very freaky, TRUE story.

Really, I simply ran over this again story within the feedback, yesterday.  However right here it’s, totally.

That is on subject as a result of Saturn is in Pisces.  That’s a Saturn Neptune alternate, which is what this about. ALL OF IT.  The profound obliviousness!  I solely edited the time-frame, under. I’m recalling one thing that occur 30 years in the past.

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I ponder if anybody else has this expertise – issues occur to you which can be huge, too huge so that you can comprehend.  Like that Crimson Handtruck story. That was one thing that occurred that was past my comprehension. I by no means gave it a thought, thirty minutes after it occurred and didn’t give it some thought for a minimum of ten years after that.

Ten years later or so, I informed the story to this astrologer on-line – he was the primary particular person I met on-line….and the one particular person I knew or communicated with for about six months.

What occurred was I had a Mountain Astrologer journal. It listed web sites in it, for the primary time, ever. This was about 30 years in the past. One of many web sites was the newsgroup, alt astrology. So I went there, and someway. I posted a message, someway and this man, a Scorpio, flamed me.

I didn’t know what a flame was, so I answered him again, earnestly. Credit score his intelligence and his sensitivity as a result of he was capable of discern I used to be price speaking to…I can solely think about how dangerous my writing would have been again then.

In no matter case, I informed him this story, type of randomly. I don’t recall why, however he reacted to it.  I didn’t know why he reacted to it, however he did. And I didn’t give it some thought after that, for a lot of years extra….possibly seven or eight years.

After which at some point I made a decision to write down the story, which I did. I had no purpose to write down it. I used to be writing quite a few tales about my life and this was one among them.

Now it’s nonetheless a few years later, one other seven or so and I nonetheless don’t know what to make of that occuring to me. I don’t know if I lack depth or breadth or mind cells or what. I’ve by no means been in a position to attract a conclusion, and even work on making an attempt to attract a conclusion…maybe as a result of I’m like a gnat.

So there may be that, however there are different issues in my life, that appear to dwarf that..I believe. I don’t actually know learn how to examine experiences of this sort, or data that involves you that’s actually fairly singular, or a minimum of so uncommon, you’re not more likely to meet somebody who you possibly can examine notes with. So I dwell with stuff like this after which often (hardly ever, due to my gnat-like persona), I get a quick glimpse of the scope of what I’ve seen, or what had shared with me and suppose, oh shit! Anybody however me would be capable to determine this out!

I don’t know why I can’t internalize these items, or assimilate it or no matter. Why can’t I perceive it?

I believe it’s one factor to not perceive how music comes via you, for those who’re a gifted musician.  However appears to be a bit completely different.

Yesterday I examine a man who used to dream math, 1o0 years in the past. He wrote down some tough equations and his tough principle, on this deathbed…100 years later, his principle has been proved.  I believe I’m extra of this ilk. For one factor, I’m a communicator. I can write and inform a narrative and what not.

Prior to now I’ve informed the tales, even when I didn’t perceive them, and maybe I’ve to return to that. I can’t see how to try this proper now and I hope it’s not as a result of I’m lazy or silly or one thing.  I don’t need an expertise to be wasted on me, however I’m afraid they’re.  I can’t perceive them, so maybe the factor to do, is to inform the tales, and go away them for another person to know, even when it takes 100 years.

It pains me to say that, however like this man along with his equation, I simply can’t get to what I can see.

Saturn Neptune out.

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In case you haven’t learn the story, I’d. You’ll always remember it and let me stress this – it’s TRUE. The opposite events are alive and properly and keep in mind this in addition to I do. Have enjoyable!