Chapter One – The Collision
Having labored on a Frito Lay truck in the course of nowhere for 9 years, you may say that I used to be as a consequence of be liberated. I met Shack Man throughout a significant Uranus transit. astrologer may have informed me that issues would pace up and I might be trying to revolutionize my life. Out with the outdated and in with the brand new, which turns into outdated in every week, so it’s in with the newer new. Throughout a Uranus transit, you might be taken in a short time to your future and it’s by way of experimentation that you simply uncover what does and doesn’t give you the results you want.
To facilitate this course of progressive open-minded individuals come into the life to assist the person. On the flip, in case you are attempting to pressure an individual beneath a Uranus transit to adapt and preserve establishment, you may be decidedly left behind. In my case, a significant participant was my double Aquarian good friend, Kay.
I met Kay by way of the Capricorn. I used to be new within the metropolis and I solely knew him briefly. It was a matter of just some weeks, however my life modified due our interplay and I count on that he would inform you a similar about me.
He was the kind of individual I’m inclined to pay discover. He had an authority about him and he acted function of smart advisor to me in some methods. He was a candid man and someday he remarked that I used to be a “mom out in search of children.” Effectively, nicely, nicely.
This was distant from how I perceived myself on the time and I rebelled towards the characterization, however you understand, he was proper. It didn’t take me lengthy to glean this and my axis tilted on his perception.
He recommended that I make a visit to a selected bar within the metropolis. I prompted him for extra data however he didn’t actually elaborate apart from to inform me that there was a gal who labored there that he thought I would love. “She may use a good friend such as you and you could possibly use a good friend like her.”
He took the time to attract me a map. He drew two of them truly. He drew a daily map and a rush hour map and I used to be amused. He was the kind not really easy to dismiss, and I’m the kind to assume most every thing is an indication, so I took his recommendation and popped into this place one afternoon.
I’m practically a non drinker, however I’m extremely relaxed in a bar atmosphere. I used to be a bartender from the time I used to be fifteen till I used to be twenty one. It’s a story for an additional day and sure, I do know that’s unlawful however I’m absolutely previous the statute of limitations at this level and I point out this to make some extent. I’ve no qualms about going to a bar alone or something like that. None in any respect. I’m in my ingredient.
On today I adopted his concise map. I acquired misplaced twice in spite, however I finally discovered the place, posted up and ordered my traditional from the gal behind the bar. Orange juice and soda water.
Kay served me, laughed and stated that my drink was on her. I used to be stunned. She stated that she was a giant spender on my OJ and that made me snort. I’m just about able to be associates with anybody who makes me snort and I questioned if this is likely to be the gal that he meant.
There was a quick alternate, some banter.
“Is that OJ too sturdy for you, or is it good?”
She turned to the bartender working along with her and stated she was taking a break. I watched her pour herself a cup of espresso and anticipated her to move to the backroom wherever it could be, however she stunned me once more when she rounded the bar and sat down subsequent to me, reaching to shake my hand.
“I’m Kay. I’m going buying on the mall tomorrow. Do you wish to include me?”
I smile. Yeah, this has acquired to be the gal. “Uh. Yeah. Yeah I do.”
“Good! Let’s meet right here tomorrow at midday. I don’t prefer to buy groceries alone and also you appear like an excellent individual to go together with. What’s your title anyway?”
That was that. Quick associates. You may’t have a correct Uranus transit with out an Aquarian information, so right here she was, and I used to be loaded within the chute.
Like I stated, I used to be new within the metropolis and I used to be eager to reinvent myself and make a life that was dramatically completely different from the one I had within the little desert city I’d left a couple of months earlier. Kay was the best good friend. She granted me whole acceptance whereas I attempted out alternative ways of being, varied methods of presenting myself. I returned her favor in my very own kind, however that might be her story to inform, proper?
The factor along with her is that something went. I used to be sporting underwear as outerwear on Monday, stylish on Tuesday, out in my pajama’s on Wednesday, Euro on Thursday, and demure on Friday. All of this was tremendous along with her and why wouldn’t or not it’s? She wore a chunky turquoise bracelet hanging round her ear one night as I recall and she or he was out many occasions sporting ripped and soiled mans denims so what’s she acquired to say if I am going out sporting striped tights?
She wore these denims with goal, by the way in which. They made her glad. They made her really feel vitally alive as a result of Kay liked farms. She liked every thing about them and she or he informed me that she hoped that she can be mistaken for having simply left one.
“However Kay. These pants are filthy.”
“Yeah I do know. Effectively, I do know they’re a bit soiled. I don’t assume they’re precisely filthy, Elsa, however what if they’re? Do you wish to know one thing else about them?”
“I do.”
“They’re man’s pants! How about that? I feel they’re enjoyable.”
I snort. “I feel they’re soiled.”
“After all they’re soiled. I’m presupposed to appear like I work on a farm.”
“Proper.”
“I wouldn’t like anybody who doesn’t like animals anyway.”
“Yeah, I do know.”
“If a bit cow dung goes to hassle them… And I look fairly good for somebody who has been feeding animals all day.”
“Yeah, you do. However you haven’t fed animals on a farm because you have been 4 years outdated, Kay.”
“I do know. However let’s hope I’m mistaken by individuals on the market who don’t know that.”
“Okay then.” I wink. “If you happen to’re mistaken for a farm lady, or perhaps a farm man, I’ll hold quiet about it.”
“Ooooh! I hope that occurs.”
In distinction, have you ever heard I’ve a Leo Venus? That’s proper. It’s all about drama child. The night time I met Shack I used to be sporting a gold hat, a gold skirt and turtleneck teamed with vibrant blue tights. The blue tights have been meant to screw up the look. It was my sister who taught me to decorate this manner. Not that she would put on one thing like this as a result of she wouldn’t and I’m certain she’d need you to know that. This was her concept, particular to me and I used to be attempting it out.
My sister has a motto, “Put on the precise garments and also you don’t have to speak.” She felt I ought to pre-qualify males on this means. It’s her feeling that I used to be born to spit in individuals’s soup. … Give ‘em jolt. Wake ‘em up. Contemplating this, she thought it not very sporting of me to exit clothed usually. She felt it was an error that I ought to masquerade as somebody who would have a minimal impression in your life in case you have been to decide on to tango with me.
I could have rejected this concept, however I had a therapist inform me what was basically the identical factor a couple of months later so I made a decision to take their level. I did have a behavior of displaying up “maiden-esque” after which morphing into the piece of labor that I’m. I’d come to see that it actually isn’t truthful to decorate as in case you are a easy or secure or a meek sort girl whenever you who you actually are, is me. I had determined to alter this, so I used to be I used to be out experimenting with alternative ways to current myself. I used to be in search of a façade that might not be a façade and I used to be very fortunately all around the web page throughout the course of.
So on this night time, on the Shack night time, Kay and I went out to do what we do. What can we do? We placed on our costumes and go someplace, wherever. A bar I imply. That is our consolation zone. It’s our taking part in area. We’d stroll in and scan the place for who appears most promising, the place promising equals attention-grabbing. We’d do that from the brink of the place and there was often a consensus between us. What number of attention-grabbing individuals are there anyway? There are usually not that many and they’re typically simple to identify.
Two males at a bar, 5 males at a desk, it makes no distinction. We’re not coy. We might strategy straight, introduce ourselves and ask if we may be a part of them and most occasions we may. We’d put up up, have a bit chat, inform some jokes and keep till our curiosity waned, if it did.
If we turned bored, we would depart graciously, often with Kay explaining that we needed to get residence. She’d say that her farm chickens prefer to eat vibrant and early. “Blissful chickens lay glad eggs…” One thing like that. We left individuals smiling; this was all the time the factor. We have been working amok, however we did no hurt. It was a section we have been in. We have been out entertaining and being entertained, whereas we advanced in ways in which have been private to us and numerous however complimentary.
The night time of the collision, it was early within the night once we headed out to see what we may kick up. Kay picked the primary bar. We didn’t hit the place typically, however we’d been there earlier than. Kay stopped on the way in which in to sing with the road musician who sat and performed guitar in entrance of the place with truthful regularity.
Kay didn’t sing very nicely, but it surely made her glad and I’m all for that. I don’t sing very nicely both and this is without doubt one of the issues I realized from her. I realized you possibly can sing everytime you wish to, anyway you wish to, which is an efficient factor to know if you would like a contented life.
The guitar participant remembered her, however how may he neglect? She sat down subsequent to him and sang off key. She sang loud, attempting to comply with him. She tried however since she didn’t know the phrases she began making them up and it happy him. He was flabbergasted too, however in a happy kind of means. Of all of the individuals who have been going to go by that night time, she was absolutely going to be his unparalleled favourite.
Watching them and laughing, I famous Kay was in tremendous kind. We have been going to have enjoyable for certain. The musician was intoxicated along with her. She was simply ultra-fetching and when she held her hand out to him for a tip on the finish of his music, all of us howled laughing. She smiled and winked at him, then acquired up and left with out trying again.
He checked out me along with his eyes pleading for me to convey her again to him, however I wouldn’t have the ability to try this. Kay couldn’t be contained. She had momentum and many individuals to thrill tonight, so sorry about that Music Man. Nevertheless, what we did was flit. And our consideration span was typically spent inside thirty minutes, so I let him know we’d be again out quickly and maybe they may share one other music. He regarded wistful, however that was the perfect I may do, so I shrugged at him and walked within the bar.
Simply within the door, Kay noticed the Taurus. She wished him and this was a significant occurring. I used to be consistently changing into enchanted with one man or the opposite. This is without doubt one of the essential issues I do, however Kay was not often concerned about courting and even when she was, she may nonetheless take it or depart it, however not this time.
She wished this man she noticed and she or he was very clear on this. It was a primary, so intriguing to me. I noticed she was nervous and I used to be stunned. We’d talked to 100 males, possibly thrice that and I’d by no means seen this earlier than. Hesitation.
“I wish to meet him,” she stated.
“The brown hair?” I did know her sort. She skilled bodily attraction typically sufficient, however all the time discovered the lads boring on nearer inspection.
“Sure.”
“Okay! Let’s go.”
“Wait. I’m not prepared.”
“Prepared?” I laughed and shook my head. “Prepared for what?”
“Elsa, I’m nervous.”
“You’re? Due to that man?” This was onerous to imagine.
“Sure. Don’t tease me.”
“Okay. What do you wish to do?”
“Go discuss to him I suppose.”
“So let’s go.”
“Wait a minute. I’m going to sing him a music as an alternative.”
I laughed. “A music? Okay! Sounds good. That music from outdoors?”
“No! That music was dim. And I don’t know the phrases!” She grinned. “And that little cutie over there, deserves a greater music than that one. I’m gonna sing him considered one of my very own. You’re coming with me aren’t you?”
“After all.”
“Okay. That’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to go proper over there and sing him a music. You discuss to his associates, okay? I like that man.”
“I see that. Let’s go see if he likes your music. No matter it’s, if he doesn’t prefer it, then he’s a capsule.”
“Proper. A capsule. Solely a capsule wouldn’t like my music.”
She was nervous and it was escalating. I didn’t get it. I regarded again on the man to see what she was seeing however I couldn’t. He regarded like a man, who regarded like a man and we met loads of them on a regular basis, so why the panic?
“Kay, in fact he’s going to love you. How can anybody not such as you?”
She laughed. “You’re proper! Okay, come on. I’ll resolve what to sing after I get there. I hope I don’t freeze up. Crap! They’re trying over right here. They see us. Oh crap. Boy, I’m scared. Right here I am going with my music although. Do you assume I can do it?”
“Sing a music? Hell sure. And that is their fortunate day to get to listen to it. Mine too.”
She began to maneuver in direction of them and I adopted. This was gonna be one thing to see. On the strategy, she jogged my memory out of the facet of her mouth.
“Discuss to his associates…”
“Okay, I’ll.”
One in all his associates was Shack Man.
Chapter Two – Taurus In The Bag, Now Get Me Out Of Right here
The three males have been sitting on the bar and considered one of them noticed us making a beeline. By the point we acquired to them, they’d spun round to face us on their stools. Kay positioned herself proper in entrance of the Taurus. I noticed her place her thumbs beneath her armpits and that is after I knew she was going to do it. She was going to sing the man her hen music. I virtually handed out and broke a rib attempting to not snort. She couldn’t be severe, however I knew she was.
She began flapping her “wings” and singing. “BOCK! BOCK! BOCK! I’M A CHICKEN!” and “I LIVE ON A FARM” and so forth. Oh crap. Very dangerous. She’s was bettin’ all of it.
The bartender was extensive eyed, incredulous. I used to be shocked, however couldn’t let her die on the stage. I’m her straight man, so I began speaking to the chums like that is regular.
“My good friend there? The one which’s singing to your good friend? She likes him. In truth, I feel she needs his telephone quantity. I’m going to speak to you guys whereas she tries to get it. Will that be okay?”
“BOCK BOCK BOCK, I LAY MY EGGS! I’M HAP, HAP, HAPPY TO BE A CHICKEN…”
“He’s not married is he? I hope not. I hope he likes her music. I like her music. She’s fairly concerned about farming. . Animals. Cows. Chickens. Canines. She likes your good friend, too. Are you guys having any enjoyable tonight or no?”
No response from the chums, however Kay completed singing and the Taurus was grinning ear to ear, clapping and laughing. Whew! She was in. She had him. Again to work!
“Effectively, appears like he likes her in spite of everything. How about that? That was a fairly good music…”
No response.
Oh man… I don’t like these guys.
The one on the tip was purely dismal. He didn’t make eye contact. I’d discover out later that he was depressed over a lover leaving they usually have been out attempting to cheer him up. I stored attempting to speak to them, but it surely wasn’t occurring. I used to be dying on the vine.
I stole a peek behind me to see that Kay had the Taurus totally engaged. She was vibrant eyed, grinning and glad and had her appreciative viewers riveted. Whole lot. Get his quantity and let’s get the hell out of right here. I’m able to go. Contemplating these “associates” I used to be considering this must be like a sting operation. Get in, get the products. Get the telephone quantity and get the hell out of there.
I needed and hoped for a fast getaway, however Kay was having an excessive amount of enjoyable. It began to appear like I is likely to be right here awhile and this was not excellent news. I scanned the room. I contemplated excusing myself from the chums and cruising elsewhere, different facet of the bar however that might be unhealthy kind, wouldn’t it? And like I stated. Kay virtually by no means attached and as nervous as she was once we headed this manner, I actually wanted to remain near assist her. Okay then.
Recommitted to doing the precise factor, I spun again round to attempt to discover a option to join with the chums. I didn’t know both of their names. They informed me however I promptly forgot. Invoice and Tom? Phil and Fred? No matter. I couldn’t have cared much less. They have been each bizarre, that’s for certain. I attempted to speak with them, however nobody talked however me. It was like speaking right into a vacuum or some form of void.
Shack Man was already in scorching pursuit of me, however I had no concept. He’d inform me later he’d seen me by the window of the bar earlier than we walked in. He didn’t count on me to return in and sit down subsequent to him, by no means thoughts Kay’s music. He was relatively overwhelmed.
I might have by no means dreamed this. I by no means considered what individuals considered us and in addition to that, I don’t stay in his land. I used to be in search of the Scorpio within the nook doing the attention factor. Or the flamboyant Leo making a spectacle. The man who comes over and affords up a Bogart quote. One thing regular like that. “Of all of the gin joints in all of the cities in all of the world, she walks into mine…” That’s the man I need. That’s my “imprint.” Venus in Leo wants a cue. I imply a clue.
Have you ever ever tried to speak to a stranger who refuses to take a look at you? It’s not enjoyable. Don’t hassle. That’s my recommendation.
I don’t separate Shack from the man on the tip. One man broods, the opposite man exudes and I simply don’t care. I’m there to run interference with the chums, nothing extra. The principle factor on my thoughts is to marvel what the Taurus has going that has attracted my good friend who isn’t attracted. I’m uninterested in the uncommunicative, attempting to make good, however far more concerned about what the Taurus is saying to Kay that’s making her snort her head off.
Shack? Effectively he’s after me all proper, however who may inform? He hunts along with his Pisces Mars. Mars in a chart, exhibits the way you get what you need. Mars in Pisces is non-aggressive and onerous to focus. This goes each methods. It’s onerous for the Pisces Mars to deal with the goal and it’s also onerous for the goal to see Mars coming.
Is that this man after me, or not, or is he? I can’t inform. I distinctly lacked an consciousness of this type of nebulous on the time. The seduction had begun, however Shack was coming after me in a refined means I couldn’t precisely detect.
How a person hunts is an enchanting factor to me. Particularly when I’m the prey. I’d truly studied this. A person and his Mars signal I imply.
I don’t imply that I learn some astrology books. Effectively, I’ve learn loads of these, however I had studied this Mars factor within the “area” over many months and had eager means to ferret out a person’s approach. Bother is, this was not Mars in Gemini chatting me up. This was not Mars in Sagittarius boasting about his travels or his broad-minded philosophy. He was not flattering me and he was not speaking about his huge home, huge job, huge automotive, huge thoughts, huge dick.
One thing like that I may determine. One thing like that, I had heard earlier than. As a substitute, as quickly as I believed he was as much as one thing, no matter it was had dissipated. His recreation was superior, subtle and distinctly otherworldly from my perspective.
He was probably not speaking to me. Simply the identical, he was throughout me. He was merging. He was respiration. He was respiration on me and round me. I feel he was whispering or a minimum of I believed he was or that he might need been. He informed me he preferred my hat.
“Excuse me?”
“I like your hat.” He whispers it.
Oh boy, creepy. That’s what I feel. I thank him however I don’t imply it.
He might have touched my leg. Possibly. Did he simply brush my leg? Was that my creativeness? He couldn’t of. He shouldn’t have, that’s for certain. I must slap him however I will need to have dreamed that anyway, proper? It’s all nuance. Is he blowing on my leg or is that the ceiling fan up there? His sexual power was coming in and over me, then rolling off and away just like the tide.
I keep oblivious. It’s a battle, however I can do it. It’s referred to as denial. How oblivious was I? Effectively, I used to be questioning if he have been retarded not directly. I’m severe. He was grinning however he didn’t seem able to holding a “well mannered chit chat whereas my good friend picks up yours” sort dialog and it bothered me. That’s what I used to be. Bothered. Get me out of right here.
Later, a lot later, I might be taught to love this fairly a bit. What he does, I imply. His magic. His Mars. That’s an understatement actually, however that night time, if somebody had informed me that I used to be going to hook up with this man, nicely I might have thought them mighty idiotic. I’m human in spite of everything. Left to my very own gadgets, most occasions I’ll do what I all the time do. I’ll decide who I all the time decide, however this was a “man plans and God laughs” sort deal. On this night time the universe staged a joke the place I used to be just about the punch line. Not that I’m complaining about that. I’m glad to play the playing cards I’m dealt.
It was a reasonably torturous hour, however Kay made her connection and was lastly prepared to interrupt away from the Taurus. We stated our good-byes and left the bar, blowing by one very disenchanted Music Man. We crossed the road, lower by the car parking zone and met up with Shack standing by the automotive. The place the hell did he come from? Oh brother. Simply after I thought it was secure.
“I wish to see you,” he stated.
“Yeah!” Massive pretend smile. “Possibly we’ll run into you once more.” My hand is on the door deal with of the automotive. I’m virtually free and that is what I need. I need out of right here.
“No. I don’t wish to take an opportunity. I need your telephone quantity. I need to have the ability to name you. I wish to see you once more, Elsa. Please. Can I name you?”
He remembers my title. Why? I don’t bear in mind his and I made it plainly apparent that I used to be not concerned about him.
“I don’t assume so. We’ll most likely run into you guys once more.”
“No. Don’t inform me that. Please. I wish to have your quantity. There’s something about you. Please. I’m a fairly good man. I actually am. I’m an excellent man. I wish to see you once more. Give me an opportunity.”
That acquired me. I couldn’t discover phrases to refuse, so I gave him my telephone quantity. It was half pity, half escape mechanism. It was partly as a result of I may really feel the promise of one thing, however caving into strain like that was not a standard factor for me to do. I’d betrayed myself in a means and once we drove from the car parking zone, I used to be muttering. “Damnit Kay, I hope he doesn’t name me, that man is a nut”. However he does name me, you understand he does.
I attain down and seize my ephemeris off the ground of the automotive. You don’t know what an ephemeris is? It’s a e-book that lists the placements of the planets on any given day. It’s an astrologer’s proper hand. Kay is gushing and I ask her for the products. “When’s that guys birthday?” She is aware of to get the start knowledge all the time. I’ve her educated. She rattles it off. She pulls over to the facet of the road and I flip to the precise web page beneath a road mild.
“Taurus. However he’s acquired his Moon in Aquarius. No marvel he preferred your music. His Mars is in Aquarius too, so he’s all hotted up for that music. He’s within the bag Kay. He’s yours if you would like him.”
“Yay! I do need him and I’m not stunned that he preferred that music. That hen music is considered one of my greatest and he was value it!”
She’s beaming.
“Oh hell sure Kay. That music was a stellar decide. He was on the mat after the primary BOCK.” I snort.
She could be very glad and I’m glad for her, so as an alternative of whining, I let the chums spin off behind me and take heed to her inform me how scrumptious the Taurus is. If I’ve even a modicum of luck I’ll by no means hear from that man anyway and by the way in which, what was his title?
To be continued.