I began finding out astrology with my sister, once I was eight years outdated. I used to be practically thirty years outdated earlier than I met one other astrologer. This was as a result of I’ve lived within the sticks most my life. However then I stop Frito Lay and moved to the town that had an astrology membership.
My sister thought I ought to test it out for each our sakes. She’d by no means met one other astrologer, both. This was pre-internet.
We had been each extraordinarily curious how this could be. Talking for myself, I didn’t know if I used to be silly or not. In hindsight, we had been rockin’ astrology right now, however I had no thought. I don’t know what my sister thought. I used to be the one doing the deed. I wrote this in 2002… much less of a filter again then,
I present up on the assembly. Seven o’clock, I’ll always remember. I used to be dressed actual snappy. Makes me consider Paul Simon’s line. “The poor boy modifications garments and places on after-shave to compensate for his odd sneakers”.
See, I don’t know what I do know. I don’t know if I belong on this assembly or not. I assumed going to this assembly was akin to displaying up at a college after being home-schooled for twenty years. Can I minimize it? I’m not very fancy.
I grew up right here.
We used to name going to the grocery retailer, “going to city”, so that you may guess that I used to be somewhat intimidated. I hoped they’d let me in and stuff. Mainly, I used to be scared.
I walked in and paid my three bucks as a result of I used to be not a member. There have been two ladies sitting on the desk, taking the money. They each regarded me over. Oh brother. I didn’t know what they’re pondering, however I hoped I look okay. I positive as hell tried exhausting sufficient.
I used to be somewhat over dressed. This was my model on the time. I used to be off a Frito truck after virtually ten years and carrying a lot of brief skirts, tights and pumps as a result of I had realized that I may. I additionally had the newborn clock ticking, so I used to be consistently in search of sperm. Taj Mahal says “Many fish chunk, for those who bought good bait…” I used to be doing my greatest!
Each ladies smiled large, but it surely did nothing however make me extra terrified. See, I feel I’m going someplace cool individuals go, however I’m not cool. I’m Elsa. These ladies are clearly cool. They’re sitting on the desk, aren’t they?
I walked in and folks had been mulling and chatting in small teams. Ack! I hate this. Coronary heart pounding, I don’t know the best way to break in anyplace, so I shortly sit down three rows from the again. I sit there as neatly as I can. Little question, with a queer smile plastered throughout my face.
I used to be in a quiet panic. I considered dashing out, however no. I mentioned I used to be going to do that, so damnit I’m going to do it. My sister needed a full report so I instructed myself to settle down. The assembly will begin quickly. It’s like I’m in a film theatre ready for the lights to go down so I can chill out and eat my popcorn.
Time strikes slowly, but it surely passes and the assembly begins. There’s nobody on both facet of me, and even in my row for that matter, which is each a blessing and a curse. A blessing as a result of I’m in no situation to talk, and a curse as a result of I’m wondering if I’m shunned or one thing. You understand… nobody desires to take a seat subsequent to me as a result of it’s so apparent I’m not hip?
You could assume this doesn’t sound like me, but it surely’s actual. I had a heavy obligation Neptune transit on the time and was splayed out far and wide. It was identical to this, all the time. Neptune transit to my Capricorn, dissolving my defenses. I used to be with out an edge and consistently morphing with my setting. I used to be on the mercy of the tides, I couldn’t see.
They opened the assembly, commenting concerning the new faces which prompts all forty individuals within the room flip to have a look at me. My face was scorching,. I think about I smiled, helplessly.
They handed a clipboard round. They need new individuals to sign up.
“They” is the girl working the assembly. She sounds just like the instructor speaking in a Peanuts cartoon. Blah, Blah, Blah that reverberates. Neptoooon. I’m dissociated!
I perceive what she’s saying, but it surely’s not likely phrases. They ask to your identify and deal with if you would like their mailings. One thing like that. Additionally they ask for start information “if you wish to depart it.”
Clipboard will get to me and I really feel this man behind me pressure to learn what I write. Oh man. I’m being noticed. Crap! I wish to make a great impression.
I write my identify slowly and punctiliously as a result of I’m shopping for time. I’m making an attempt to determine if I wish to depart my information or not. Hmmm… What’s the cool factor to do, I’m wondering? I don’t know. I choose to not, largely as a result of the man behind me is so eager for it. Fucking Scorpio.
The clipboard is being handed to the again of the room, so I flip handy it to the peeper again there and he grabs it in hungry model. He notes that I’ve left the start information slot clean and he whispers, “You forgot your start information.” He factors to the spot I left clean, in case I’m silly. “Proper right here.”
“Sure. I do know.” I whisper again. “Thanks.” says my Libra. My Libra is actually filled with shit. Good smile.
That is okay. It’s one on one, which is my forte, actually.
“Are you positive you don’t wish to depart your information? We don’t do something with it. Properly, generally we learn one another’s charts, however provided that somebody desires…”
“Yeah, I’m positive. Thanks.”
I flip again, questioning if I used to be impolite and pondering that he’s, contemplating the gal in entrance continues to be working the assembly. Shouldn’t we be listening to her? Logic says sure, however I don’t actually know. I’ve by no means been to a membership earlier than. I’ve not spent a lot time in “city” normally. I hear him say “swimsuit your self”, however I don’t reply.
I don’t keep in mind a lot of what was mentioned at this primary assembly. It was so unreal to be in a room of people that embraced astrology. Between that and the anticipation of coming, and the Neptune transit, I used to be feeling form fairly excessive.
I made it by way of the ninety minutes with out speaking. There was some dialogue and a number of other instances the chief regarded to me, keen to present me a possibility to speak, however I averted my eyes, as a result of I had no voice. How do you speak together with your abdomen in your throat?
I used to be relieved when the assembly ended. I used to be proud too. I’d made it by way of with out catastrophe and managed to not bolt. I famous, individuals had been congregating in small teams, however I bought up shortly and headed straight for the door. Guess who meets me at my automotive?
Proper. The man sitting behind me. He explains he’s an officer of the membership. He’s getting some papers or one thing from his van. He’s mendacity, isn’t he? *Chortle.
He implores me to come back again in. He says he’ll introduce me to everybody, however I can’t do it. I simply can’t collect myself. I’m having a giant downside with this Neptune stuff. I really feel like a puddle, so as a substitute, I inform him that I can be again for the subsequent assembly.
“Are you going to hitch us?”
“Um…”
I’ve by no means joined something in my life. What’s that like anyway? “I don’t know. I don’t actually know,” I say.
I’m glad he’s speaking to me. He appears good. It’s like he’s keen to sponsor me into the group and I recognize this. I additionally assume he desires a date. Only a hunch. When a person chases you out to your automotive, it’s normally his dick main him, proper?
I wasn’t positive if I used to be considering him or not, however the thought of relationship an astrologer was fairly amusing. That’d be one thing new. “Can I’m going now?” I feel.
He provided to learn my chart, and that was fairly cool. Nobody outdoors my household had ever learn my chart. I used to be type of fascinated with the prospect.
In the long run, he was holding my cellphone quantity once I drove away.
That Man…
He wasn’t a Scorpio. He was a Taurus with a Scorpio Moon, each his Solar and Moon sq. Pluto in Leo. Okay, okay. He was a Scorpio. Most cancers rising as I recall, and I do recall.
I spent a while with him. He was making an attempt to this point me and I used to be making an attempt to not date him. Ever try this?
In the long run I received. I gave him each probability, however he stored inviting me to his home and consuming in entrance of me. Yeah, that’s proper.
He would invite me over, 6:30 or so. You understand. Time for dinner. I’d present up and he’d be pulling his dinner out of the oven. I used to be a vegetarian on the time. I stayed that manner till I bought pregnant, however anyway, he’d eat his bachelor dinner in entrance of me, after which he’d wish to watch Star Trek.
He knew I didn’t eat meat however by no means bothered to have something there for me. I didn’t watch Star Trek both, however no matter.
After Star Trek was over, he needed to sleep with me however I had different issues on my thoughts like the actual fact my abdomen was growling, so he was just about out of luck.
I spent a while with him, however we by no means bought something off the bottom romantically. So far as I do know, nobody within the astrology membership had any consciousness of our interplay.