Once I was youthful, I knew girls who would solely date artists or musicians – even when their inventive presents got here bundled with drug use, monetary irresponsibility, or infidelity. Throughout my years singing in a band, a variety of these girls would grasp round after the present, ready to satisfy the guitarist or the drummer, and this baffled me. Having labored with so many musicians since I used to be a young person, they held no romantic thriller for me. However I additionally felt that many ladies who had been obsessive about artists had been actually lacking out on one thing particular: the fun, validation, and energy that come from being a creator and performer. I couldn’t think about that romantic involvement with musicians, writers, or athletes could be practically as satisfying. Higher to feed your personal inventive Leo lionness, I assumed – to turn into the musician, the author, the athlete.
However my soiled little secret was that I’d turn into a musician not only for the satisfaction of self-expression, however as a result of I used to be a social misfit with out a variety of choices. Not like the ladies who hung round backstage on the golf equipment the place my band performed, who traveled in tight, homogeneously enticing teams, I didn’t match societal beliefs about femininity. And to be trustworthy, I envied – nonetheless envy – girls who “slot in.” Even now I usually really feel misplaced at a bridal bathe or woman’s night time out.
There are those that do teams properly—let’s name them “Aquarian”—and people who by no means really feel proper touring in packs. These of us with untapped Aquarius power wander by life feeling as if we missed faculty on the day social networking expertise had been taught. People are social animals, and we’re hard-wired to crave the very Aquarian expertise of belonging. But when becoming in means surrendering the concepts, presents, and self-expression which can be uniquely ours, our Leo selves insist that it’s too pricey a worth to pay.
Because it turned out, not becoming in has proved to be certainly one of my biggest blessings. I bear in mind pondering early on that if I couldn’t slot in, I’d rattling properly make the perfect of standing out. So I gave myself over fully to music and later to writing, and ultimately, an exquisite factor occurred: By standing out, I by some means managed to seek out my place–to seek out love, acceptance, and friendship alone phrases.
Now and again, the odd Uranus transit or progressed planet in Aquarius offers me a style of what it’s like to easily, effortlessly, belong – to take enjoyment and power from social connections. However when the transit passes and I return to the social wilderness, I don’t thoughts. There are inventive treasures to be discovered there. I discover myself there.
With the Solar and Pluto newly in Aquarius at this Full Moon – and Mercury, Venus, and Mars becoming a member of them there within the coming weeks – collective id and customary function are energized and rewarded, to the extent that your Leo self could also be feeling a tad undernourished. This Full Moon could awaken uncomfortable reminiscences of inventive, romantic, and social hurts. Reasonably than pushing these sad reminiscences rapidly to 1 facet, maybe there’s one thing to be realized from them.
At every year’s Leo Full Moon, we’re requested to recollect what sort of gasoline powers the engine of our hearts, and to hunt our place within the hearts of others. Should you’re feeling drained and off, schedule a while alone for inventive play. Should you’ve been feeling as if you don’t belong anyplace, perhaps it’s since you’re attempting to suit your self into shapes that don’t swimsuit you. This Leo Full Moon is a chance to step again for a second and get reacquainted along with your passions and to belief that they are going to unite you with the folks to whom you really belong.
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